Interests. What are they?

My husband, Jason and I had a great conversation the other night. I was actually able to receive it. I didn't get all defensive (this is a biggie for me). I really struggle with defensiveness. Mom says it's good I at least recognize it at a young age...the Lord can work on that with me. Some never recognize this and it robs them of much joy.

So, back to the conversation. We had been to dinner and were having fine conversation...but it wasn't really about anything in particular. It lulled...we weren't quite that couple sitting there with nothing to talk about...but it felt harder than normal to converse. When we got in the car and were heading to a staff Christmas party, I asked him about it. I told him that I didn't really want to talk sports and racing...really don't like talking about politics at ALL...movies...tv....it all feels trite. Shallow. I love to talk about my kids. Brainstorm creative ways to discipline, to figure out "the issue" and work on that. I love to read books about parenting, how to be intentional, how to schedule a baby...I love all of that. I love looking at what God has to say about all of that too. That said, I don't know that I have any interests any more that don't have to do with our kids or parenting.

As Jason and I talked about it - he was really sweet. I was able to hear him. Hear him say that when I was working it seemed that I was able to talk about more of a variety of subjects...now I think I might be a bit tunnel visioned. I don't know. I am at a bit of a loss on this one.

I am not sure it is balanced to really only think about parenting, discipline, effectively impacting our children...but then I think...this is my job too. Jason spends hours brainstorming the best, most effective ways to do things w/ his work...yet he also has other interests. I am not sure I have any anymore. What does this say about me?

Perhaps this is a season. Perhaps the prayer needs to begin to be Lord show me balance. Help me to find other things interesting. Help me to work at expanding what you might want to have influence in my life. I trust you Lord. Help me know how to process this. You gave me a brain, passion, and focus. Direct it to where you want.